Understand the pain first and then understand the love

Has anyone ever counted how many people a person can like and fall in love with in his life? If so, I hope he will tell you. The person you like, which is the best, the most beautiful smile, the person you love, which is the deepest, the most true cry. If like is just a synonym for good feelings, it is also fast to come, it is a temporary feeling aroused by hormones, the instant coincidence of biological current frequency, so love, it is the true feeling that the soul of thought gives to the heart. I don’t know when you began to fall in love with him. You can’t remember the impression when you first met him or his humor when you talked. It’s just in your sight, his poor mouth frowned and his words touched your heart. Fallen leaves, carpet for asphalt roads, lonely autumn, there is a kind of mild sorrow, you see him walking alone on the broad road under the neon light, before you follow, he did not find you, you followed his steps carefully in the corner where he could not see you, and kept walking. He lowered his head and wrist splint his chin, as if in meditation. You wanted to go forward and say hello to him, he was afraid of disturbing him and making him disgusted, so you came up with a way to copy the path to his front, and wanted to meet him at the intersection ahead, just like the idol play, naturally, you rushed to the corner and saw him coming. You pretended to be idle shopping before the breath stopped, but your expression showed eight teeth to meet him, the closer he gets, the faster your heart rate will accelerate. When he passes by, you think he will see you and greet you, but no, he didn’t see you. You are very lost, but he didn’t have the courage to go forward, and he still followed him closely behind him with self-pity. Looking at his back, you entered the god for fear of escaping from your sight, but God always likes to play tricks on people. The more you fear, the faster he suddenly speeds up, not waiting for you to react, it has disappeared. You are anxious. While blaming yourself for carelessness, you are looking for his figure in a hurry, thinking that if you find him, you must come forward to find him. It was too urgent. I didn’t see the front steps. I fell down fiercely, rubbed my skin and shed blood. You didn’t care about it. You searched several intersections and streets, finally found his figure in the crowd. You were overjoyed. The big stone in your heart landed steadily. Just about to move forward, the big stone floated again, higher and bigger than it, because you saw one more of her around him, just when she disappeared. You start to think, who is she, a friend? Classmates? Sister? Sister? Or is it the last girlfriend you want? You speed up your steps for a while and want to get close to see clearly. As a result, they put their arms around their waist, laugh and act with each other to prove to you that you have to accepted facts. They are male and female friends, you feel pain at this moment, very painful. Compared with that, the pain of falling injury can be ignored, as if the crowd is fixed, time stops at a freezing point, everything in the world no longer rotates, and your eyes are moist. Dull for a long time, pat your face to refresh yourself, keep the distance they don’t find, and look at it secretly, like protecting them. You know better than anyone else in your heart that he has occupied your heart, if you want to pull him away from your heart in a short time, you will collapse, go crazy and die. He may not be the other half of my life. My fate with him has not yet come to use these self-deceiving words to persuade myself, lick my wounds and cheer myself up. You should pay attention to the shops and stores on both sides of the road. The decoration is neat and elegant. When you see beautiful clothes, shoes and ornament, the first thing you think is whether these are suitable for him, whether he looks good in this dress or not, you don’t find that the clothes you have been looking forward to have been on the market; you didn’t find the concert ticket you bought in your pocket for a month, which will expire after tonight; You didn’t even find that at this time, the ice cream in the hand of the little boy beside the road fell to the ground, suddenly burst into tears, looking at the ice cream that the little boy landed on the ground, which was more like his heart, falling to pieces and melting. Listening to this howling cry, it is like crying out your own mood. At this moment, you think you are so the same as the little boy and you have lost the most precious thing. You can no longer support it, he burst into tears and wanted to vent all love with tears. Someone handed over a tissue and said in your ear, don’t cry, everything will pass, and you can’t see him clearly if your eyes are blurred by tears. You wiped your tears with sobs, and the man had disappeared in the crowd. You smiled and laughed at yourself. You lost yourself and lost all your original happiness because of him. You had nothing and nothing. Suddenly you found yourself stupid, too stupid to understand, life still needs to continue. You try to slow down, begin to accept the fact, gradually draw a distance away from them, don’t disturb their joy, you can turn around and go home to sleep, however, the rejection of him in your heart always makes you feel impatient to make a decision. When you are struggling, someone patted you behind you, and you turn around, touch your face and touch a cup of warm milk tea. It is a friend of the opposite sex who you know. What did your friend say? When I saw your hurt wound, I immediately bandaged it up and slowly thermocautery it up, you find it very comfortable to communicate with him. There are topics that you can’t talk about that interest you. It is not as cold as the appearance, which makes you forget the unpleasant beginning. It was cold at night. My friend took off his coat and put it on for you. It was very warm. When you left together, your friend’s greetings made you feel very happy. You like this feeling. You moved forward slowly, but shameful, you still pay attention to their actions intentionally or unintentionally and follow their route. After a long time, you found that they seemed to have a dispute over a small matter. At first, they were just making a little trouble. Later, they became more and more fierce and out of control. Finally, they broke up unhappily. When you saw him alone in front of him, there was a wave in your heart. You said that you had something to leave and asked your friend to stroll by himself. The friend seemed to know something and smiled and said hello. You hurried to his side. You knew you were mean, but there was always a driving force for you to do so. He was not surprised by your arrival, I was still frustrated about the noisy things. I barely squeezed out a smile after seeing you. He said he saw you when he first came out, but he didn’t say hello to you if there was something important, you asked him if the matter had been finished, and he said it had been done, so you went together. He was a little curious about you and would show concern for you from time to time, but you communicate with him like a dull wood. He said that you had been behind him all the time and he knew that it was good to be with you. He invited you to walk the way back together, but you refused! You know what? Before I came to you, I was with him. When I left with you, I wanted to show you my best side. He came to me, although I pretended well, but he still found my weakness. When I left with him, I could play the other half in his mind without restraint and be myself naturally. I don’t know why I rushed up when I saw you alone. I think my love for you is just crazy love for yourself. For me who is unwilling to chase you so long, I want to give myself an explanation. I admit that you are still in my heart. I don’t know if you will disappear one day because of dissatisfaction. I don’t want this. At least once in my life, I will forget myself for someone, unfortunately, you have become that person. I don’t want to forget you clean. This is irresponsible for my life process, but it will not affect my life later. For him, I fell in love with him. Maybe I defiled the sacred word of love, but I don’t want to just say that I like him, because I am really interested in him, he used to appear in my world, just like I always appear in your sight, but you who appeared first made me not pay more attention to his good, or my self-esteem is unwilling to admit that I fell in love with two people at the same time. I can’t tell what love is. I can’t say it clearly. It’s not that I can love many people and love many people all my life. I never believe that there is only one person suitable for me in the world, however, there is only one person who can grow old with you. I hope it is him. If you ask why he is not you, I don’t know the answer. I only know that I can’t deceive you, let alone deceive myself and leave him until now, he has always been in my mind. Thank you for your appearance, which makes me understand the pain I can’t get or have lost. It doesn’t matter. The most important thing is to cherish it. I don’t know if he is still waiting for me now, Yogueta is still there, I will be with him, although I haven’t told him any of these. After that, you hugged him and let yourself say goodbye to the past. You ran back with all your strength. In the place of separation, you didn’t see him. You were at a loss and didn’t know what to do. You slowly moved to the chair beside the street and sat down, the Sky blew with the cold rain, curled up, the rain turned into tears, tears into the rain. My friend came over and held an umbrella for you. He smiled and said that I hadn’t left yet. You swung in my friend’s arms and couldn’t say anything, but you just held it tightly and tightly.

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